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The
Education Of An Engineer
by
Robert Louis Stevenson
ANSTRUTHER
is a place sacred to the Muse; she inspired (really to a considerable
extent) Tennant's vernacular poem ANST'ER FAIR; and I have there
waited upon her myself with much devotion. This was when I came
as a young man to glean engineering experience from the building
of the breakwater. What I gleaned, I am sure I do not know; but
indeed I had already my own private determination to be an author;
I loved the art of words and the appearances of life; and TRAVELLERS,
and HEADERS, and RUBBLE, and POLISHED ASHLAR, and PIERRES PERDUES,
and even the thrilling question of the STRING- COURSE, interested
me only (if they interested me at all) as properties for some
possible romance or as words to add to my vocabulary. To grow
a little catholic is the compensation of years; youth is one-eyed;
and in those days, though I haunted the breakwater by day, and
even loved the place for the sake of the sunshine, the thrilling
seaside air, the wash of waves on the sea- face, the green glimmer
of the divers' helmets far below, and the musical chinking of
the masons, my one genuine preoccupation lay elsewhere, and my
only industry was in the hours when I was not on duty. I lodged
with a certain Bailie Brown, a carpenter by trade; and there,
as soon as dinner was despatched, in a chamber scented with dry
rose-leaves, drew in my chair to the table and proceeded to pour
forth literature, at such a speed, and with such intimations of
early death and immortality, as I now look back upon with wonder.
Then it was that I wrote VOCES FIDELIUM, a series of dramatic
monologues in verse; then that I indited the bulk of a covenanting
novel - like so many others, never finished. Late I sat into the
night, toiling (as I thought) under the very dart of death, toiling
to leave a memory behind me. I feel moved to thrust aside the
curtain of the years, to hail that poor feverish idiot, to bid
him go to bed and clap VOCES FIDELIUM on the fire before he goes;
so clear does he appear before me, sitting there between his candles
in the rose-scented room and the late night; so ridiculous a picture
(to my elderly wisdom) does the fool present! But he was driven
to his bed at last without miraculous intervention; and the manner
of his driving sets the last touch upon this eminently youthful
business. The weather was then so warm that I must keep the windows
open; the night without was populous with moths. As the late darkness
deepened, my literary tapers beaconed forth more brightly; thicker
and thicker came the dusty night-fliers, to gyrate for one brilliant
instant round the flame and fall in agonies upon my paper. Flesh
and blood could not endure the spectacle; to capture immortality
was doubtless a noble enterprise, but not to capture it at such
a cost of suffering; and out would go the candles, and off would
I go to bed in the darkness raging to think that the blow might
fall on the morrow, and there was VOCES FIDELIUM still incomplete.
Well, the moths are - all gone, and VOCES FIDELIUM along with
them; only the fool is still on hand and practises new follies.
Only one thing in connection with the harbour tempted me, and
that was the diving, an experience I burned to taste of. But this
was not to be, at least in Anstruther; and the subject involves
a change of scene to the sub-arctic town of Wick. You can never
have dwelt in a country more unsightly than that part of Caithness,
the land faintly swelling, faintly falling, not a tree, not a
hedgerow, the fields divided by single slate stones set upon their
edge, the wind always singing in your ears and (down the long
road that led nowhere) thrumming in the telegraph wires. Only
as you approached the coast was there anything to stir the heart.
The plateau broke down to the North Sea in formidable cliffs,
the tall out-stacks rose like pillars ringed about with surf,
the coves were over- brimmed with clamorous froth, the sea-birds
screamed, the wind sang in the thyme on the cliff's edge; here
and there, small ancient castles toppled on the brim; here and
there, it was possible to dip into a dell of shelter, where you
might lie and tell yourself you were a little warm, and hear (near
at hand) the whin-pods bursting in the afternoon sun, and (farther
off) the rumour of the turbulent sea. As for Wick itself, it is
one of the meanest of man's towns, and situate certainly on the
baldest of God's bays. It lives for herring, and a strange sight
it is to see (of an afternoon) the heights of Pulteney blackened
by seaward-looking fishers, as when a city crowds to a review
- or, as when bees have swarmed, the ground is horrible with lumps
and clusters; and a strange sight, and a beautiful, to see the
fleet put silently out against a rising moon, the sea-line rough
as a wood with sails, and ever and again and one after another,
a boat flitting swiftly by the silver disk. This mass of fishers,
this great fleet of boats, is out of all proportion to the town
itself; and the oars are manned and the nets hauled by immigrants
from the Long Island (as we call the outer Hebrides), who come
for that season only, and depart again, if "the take"
be poor, leaving debts behind them. In a bad year, the end of
the herring fishery is therefore an exciting time; fights are
common, riots often possible; an apple knocked from a child's
hand was once the signal for something like a war; and even when
I was there, a gunboat lay in the bay to assist the authorities.
To contrary interests, it should be observed, the curse of Babel
is here added; the Lews men are Gaelic speakers. Caithness has
adopted English; an odd circumstance, if you reflect that both
must be largely Norsemen by descent. I remember seeing one of
the strongest instances of this division: a thing like a Punch-and-
Judy box erected on the flat grave-stones of the churchyard; from
the hutch or proscenium - I know not what to call it - an eldritch-
looking preacher laying down the law in Gaelic about some one
of the name of POWL, whom I at last divined to be the apostle
to the Gentiles; a large congregation of the Lews men very devoutly
listening; and on the outskirts of the crowd, some of the town's
children (to whom the whole affair was Greek and Hebrew) profanely
playing tigg. The same descent, the same country, the same narrow
sect of the same religion, and all these bonds made very largely
nugatory by an accidental difference of dialect!
Into the bay of Wick stretched the dark length of the unfinished
breakwater, in its cage of open staging; the travellers (like
frames of churches) over-plumbing all; and away at the extreme
end, the divers toiling unseen on the foundation. On a platform
of loose planks, the assistants turned their air-mills; a stone
might be swinging between wind and water; underneath the swell
ran gaily; and from time to time, a mailed dragon with a window-glass
snout came dripping up the ladder. Youth is a blessed season after
all; my stay at Wick was in the year of VOCES FIDELIUM and the
rose-leaf room at Bailie Brown's; and already I did not care two
straws for literary glory. Posthumous ambition perhaps requires
an atmosphere of roses; and the more rugged excitant of Wick east
winds had made another boy of me. To go down in the diving-dress,
that was my absorbing fancy; and with the countenance of a certain
handsome scamp of a diver, Bob Bain by name, I gratified the whim.
It was gray, harsh, easterly weather, the swell ran pretty high,
and out in the open there were "skipper's daughters,"
when I found myself at last on the diver's platform, twenty pounds
of lead upon each foot and my whole person swollen with ply and
ply of woollen underclothing. One moment, the salt wind was whistling
round my night-capped head; the next, I was crushed almost double
under the weight of the helmet. As that intolerable burthern was
laid upon me, I could have found it in my heart (only for shame's
sake) to cry off from the whole enterprise. But it was too late.
The attendants began to turn the hurdy-gurdy, and the air to whistle
through the tube; some one screwed in the barred window of the
vizor; and I was cut off in a moment from my fellow-men; standing
there in their midst, but quite divorced from intercourse: a creature
deaf and dumb, pathetically looking forth upon them from a climate
of his own. Except that I could move and feel, I was like a man
fallen in a catalepsy. But time was scarce given me to realise
my isolation; the weights were hung upon my back and breast, the
signal rope was thrust into my unresisting hand; and setting a
twenty-pound foot upon the ladder, I began ponderously to descend.
Some twenty rounds below the platform, twilight fell. Looking
up, I saw a low green heaven mottled with vanishing bells of white;
looking around, except for the weedy spokes and shafts of the
ladder, nothing but a green gloaming, somewhat opaque but very
restful and delicious. Thirty rounds lower, I stepped off on the
PIERRES PERDUES of the foundation; a dumb helmeted figure took
me by the hand, and made a gesture (as I read it) of encouragement;
and looking in at the creature's window, I beheld the face of
Bain. There we were, hand to hand and (when it pleased us) eye
to eye; and either might have burst himself with shouting, and
not a whisper come to his companion's hearing. Each, in his own
little world of air, stood incommunicably separate.
Bob had told me ere this a little tale, a five minutes' drama
at the bottom of the sea, which at that moment possibly shot across
my mind. He was down with another, settling a stone of the sea-wall.
They had it well adjusted, Bob gave the signal, the scissors were
slipped, the stone set home; and it was time to turn to something
else. But still his companion remained bowed over the block like
a mourner on a tomb, or only raised himself to make absurd contortions
and mysterious signs unknown to the vocabulary of the diver. There,
then, these two stood for awhile, like the dead and the living;
till there flashed a fortunate thought into Bob's mind, and he
stooped, peered through the window of that other world, and beheld
the face of its inhabitant wet with streaming tears. Ah! the man
was in pain! And Bob, glancing downward, saw what was the trouble:
the block had been lowered on the foot of that unfortunate - he
was caught alive at the bottom of the sea under fifteen tons of
rock.
That two men should handle a stone so heavy, even swinging in
the scissors, may appear strange to the inexpert. These must bear
in mind the great density of the water of the sea, and the surprising
results of transplantation to that medium. To understand a little
what these are, and how a man's weight, so far from being an encumbrance,
is the very ground of his agility, was the chief lesson of my
submarine experience. The knowledge came upon me by degrees. As
I began to go forward with the hand of my estranged companion,
a world of tumbled stones was visible, pillared with the weedy
uprights of the staging: overhead, a flat roof of green: a little
in front, the sea-wall, like an unfinished rampart. And presently
in our upward progress, Bob motioned me to leap upon a stone;
I looked to see if he were possibly in earnest, and he only signed
to me the more imperiously. Now the block stood six feet high;
it would have been quite a leap to me unencumbered; with the breast
and back weights, and the twenty pounds upon each foot, and the
staggering load of the helmet, the thing was out of reason. I
laughed aloud in my tomb; and to prove to Bob how far he was astray,
I gave a little impulse from my toes. Up I soared like a bird,
my companion soaring at my side. As high as to the stone, and
then higher, I pursued my impotent and empty flight. Even when
the strong arm of Bob had checked my shoulders, my heels continued
their ascent; so that I blew out sideways like an autumn leaf,
and must be hauled in, hand over hand, as sailors haul in the
slack of a sail, and propped upon my feet again like an intoxicated
sparrow. Yet a little higher on the foundation, and we began to
be affected by the bottom of the swell, running there like a strong
breeze of wind. Or so I must suppose; for, safe in my cushion
of air, I was conscious of no impact; only swayed idly like a
weed, and was now borne helplessly abroad, and now swiftly - and
yet with dream-like gentleness - impelled against my guide. So
does a child's balloon divagate upon the currents of the air,
and touch, and slide off again from every obstacle. So must have
ineffectually swung, so resented their inefficiency, those light
crowds that followed the Star of Hades, and uttered exiguous voices
in the land beyond Cocytus.
There was something strangely exasperating, as well as strangely
wearying, in these uncommanded evolutions. It is bitter to return
to infancy, to be supported, and directed, and perpetually set
upon your feet, by the hand of some one else. The air besides,
as it is supplied to you by the busy millers on the platform,
closes the eustachian tubes and keeps the neophyte perpetually
swallowing, till his throat is grown so dry that he can swallow
no longer. And for all these reasons-although I had a fine, dizzy,
muddle-headed joy in my surroundings, and longed, and tried, and
always failed, to lay hands on the fish that darted here and there
about me, swift as humming-birds - yet I fancy I was rather relieved
than otherwise when Bain brought me back to the ladder and signed
to me to mount. And there was one more experience before me even
then. Of a sudden, my ascending head passed into the trough of
a swell. Out of the green, I shot at once into a glory of rosy,
almost of sanguine light - the multitudinous seas incarnadined,
the heaven above a vault of crimson. And then the glory faded
into the hard, ugly daylight of a Caithness autumn, with a low
sky, a gray sea, and a whistling wind.
Bob Bain had five shillings for his trouble, and I had done what
I desired. It was one of the best things I got from my education
as an engineer: of which, however, as a way of life, I wish to
speak with sympathy. It takes a man into the open air; it keeps
him hanging about harbour-sides, which is the richest form of
idling; it carries him to wild islands; it gives him a taste of
the genial dangers of the sea; it supplies him with dexterities
to exercise; it makes demands upon his ingenuity; it will go far
to cure him of any taste (if ever he had one) for the miserable
life of cities. And when it has done so, it carries him back and
shuts him in an office! From the roaring skerry and the wet thwart
of the tossing boat, he passes to the stool and desk; and with
a memory full of ships, and seas, and perilous headlands, and
the shining pharos, he must apply his long-sighted eyes to the
petty niceties of drawing, or measure his inaccurate mind with
several pages of consecutive figures. He is a wise youth, to be
sure, who can balance one part of genuine life against two parts
of drudgery between four walls, and for the sake of the one, manfully
accept the other.
Wick was scarce an eligible place of stay. But how much better
it was to hang in the cold wind upon the pier, to go down with
Bob Bain among the roots of the staging, to be all day in a boat
coiling a wet rope and shouting orders - not always very wise
- than to be warm and dry, and dull, and dead-alive, in the most
comfortable office. And Wick itself had in those days a note of
originality. It may have still, but I misdoubt it much. The old
minister of Keiss would not preach, in these degenerate times,
for an hour and a half upon the clock. The gipsies must be gone
from their cavern; where you might see, from the mouth, the women
tending their fire, like Meg Merrilies, and the men sleeping off
their coarse potations; and where, in winter gales, the surf would
beleaguer them closely, bursting in their very door. A traveller
to-day upon the Thurso coach would scarce observe a little cloud
of smoke among the moorlands, and be told, quite openly, it marked
a private still. He would not indeed make that journey, for there
is now no Thurso coach. And even if he could, one little thing
that happened to me could never happen to him, or not with the
same trenchancy of contrast.
We had been upon the road all evening; the coach-top was crowded
with Lews fishers going home, scarce anything but Gaelic had sounded
in my ears; and our way had lain throughout over a moorish country
very northern to behold. Latish at night, though it was still
broad day in our subarctic latitude, we came down upon the shores
of the roaring Pentland Firth, that grave of mariners; on one
hand, the cliffs of Dunnet Head ran seaward; in front was the
little bare, white town of Castleton, its streets full of blowing
sand; nothing beyond, but the North Islands, the great deep, and
the perennial ice-fields of the Pole. And here, in the last imaginable
place, there sprang up young outlandish voices and a chatter of
some foreign speech; and I saw, pursuing the coach with its load
of Hebridean fishers - as they had pursued VETTURINI up the passes
of the Apennines or perhaps along the grotto under Virgil's tomb
- two little dark-eyed, white-toothed Italian vagabonds, of twelve
to fourteen years of age, one with a hurdy- gurdy, the other with
a cage of white mice. The coach passed on, and their small Italian
chatter died in the distance; and I was left to marvel how they
had wandered into that country, and how they fared in it, and
what they thought of it, and when (if ever) they should see again
the silver wind-breaks run among the olives, and the stone-pine
stand guard upon Etruscan sepulchres.
Upon any American, the strangeness of this incident is somewhat
lost. For as far back as he goes in his own land, he will find
some alien camping there; the Cornish miner, the French or Mexican
half-blood, the negro in the South, these are deep in the woods
and far among the mountains. But in an old, cold, and rugged country
such as mine, the days of immigration are long at an end; and
away up there, which was at that time far beyond the northernmost
extreme of railways, hard upon the shore of that ill-omened strait
of whirlpools, in a land of moors where no stranger came, unless
it should be a sportsman to shoot grouse or an antiquary to decipher
runes, the presence of these small pedestrians struck the mind
as though a bird-of-paradise had risen from the heather or an
albatross come fishing in the bay of Wick. They were as strange
to their surroundings as my lordly evangelist or the old Spanish
grandee on the Fair Isle.
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